I'm pretty urked at this very moment so please excuse the complaining....
I often hear, "trust your gut" and I failed to do that so here I am mad at the news. My new (well not so new) tumor is like a cm from the one they just removed. Given it's tiny but I was all set up to have an additional stronger MRI before surgery just to make sure nothing else was lurking....When the surgeons office called me and reasured me it was not necessary they would have been able to see any others on my previous test and they hadn't. I trusted there word over mine and I get to pay for it now. I think for now on if I feel like I need a test even if it's just to make myself comfortable I am SOOO going to just do it. I also was told about gamma knife in the event that this tumor grows and/or bleeds. I think I will start researching that now.
Since these tumors are so close I should not experience any new symptoms I hadn't with the last one and this area of my brain has a high threshold for seizures so lucky me I should be okay. I definitely will not torture myself with the wait game so here is to letting go and living life as if there is nothing lurking :)
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Acne Secret
I've decided to write about something less depressing and whiney today yey! I woke up this morning to a fresh face and pores you could not see so I thought I would share my secret.
I have a history of acne and an even bigger history of spending lots of money and caking all different products on my face. Yes this does make it worse but I figured if I was being pro-active maybe it would eventually help. I have had light therapy to chemical peels to medicine oh and how could I forget the Accutane (the so called miracle drug). By the way Accutane works for maybe 6 months not forever and most people have long term effects from it so I advice AGAINST IT! So I finally got the bright idea of leaving my poor face alone. First I tried washing it only at night with soap and in the morning with just water but bacteria is bacteria. Even though my face was not as dry I would still get EVIL pimples. Then I was introduced to Mint Julep Mask (totally got it Walgreens) I think it was less then $5.00. Back to my secret... Shh...
I wash my face with very gentle face soap made for eczema (NeoStrata) and original Olay lotion (not the stuff with all sort of chemicals that claim to make you younger) and last but most important is the Queen Helena Mint Julep Mask 1x a week (preferably night before date night he.. he..). At First you might break out a little but this is just your poors starting to clear out so be patient. Come on you have been dealing with it this long why not wait a couple more days
In the words of my Biology teacher, "If your breaking out in your 20's and beyond chances are you are over washing your face".
I have a history of acne and an even bigger history of spending lots of money and caking all different products on my face. Yes this does make it worse but I figured if I was being pro-active maybe it would eventually help. I have had light therapy to chemical peels to medicine oh and how could I forget the Accutane (the so called miracle drug). By the way Accutane works for maybe 6 months not forever and most people have long term effects from it so I advice AGAINST IT! So I finally got the bright idea of leaving my poor face alone. First I tried washing it only at night with soap and in the morning with just water but bacteria is bacteria. Even though my face was not as dry I would still get EVIL pimples. Then I was introduced to Mint Julep Mask (totally got it Walgreens) I think it was less then $5.00. Back to my secret... Shh...
I wash my face with very gentle face soap made for eczema (NeoStrata) and original Olay lotion (not the stuff with all sort of chemicals that claim to make you younger) and last but most important is the Queen Helena Mint Julep Mask 1x a week (preferably night before date night he.. he..). At First you might break out a little but this is just your poors starting to clear out so be patient. Come on you have been dealing with it this long why not wait a couple more days
In the words of my Biology teacher, "If your breaking out in your 20's and beyond chances are you are over washing your face".
Monday, July 9, 2012
2 in 25
I've been MIA since I was still recovering emotionally and physically from surgery. I am not exagerating when I say brain surgery was really traumatic for me. I'm still not over it and it has been 3 months. I have increasing headaches and severe neck pain. I convinced myself I had another CM growing in my cervical spine area so I asked for another MRI (I should probably lay off the radiation for the rest of the year). Of course my results came back with a curve ball I was so not prepared for hit me in the heart. Neck pain is easy I have a little disk situation and a cyst in between but brain situation not so easy... I have been diagnosed with yet another tumor but this time it's 2mm compared to the 2cm the last one was when they took it out. This one seems to be deeper which scares me but I'm 3 days post finding out and I feel at ease. This was a very tough situation to get diagnosed at my age but to find out I have 2 in one year has been pretty crappy. I read a blog the other day of someone who is in pain everyday and I had to stop and reflect because although I have headaches everyday it has been managable with medicine and rest. Yes I have something growin in my head but instead of complaining I am going to be thankful each morning that I don't have seizures and I do not have the pain some illness can cause. Makes me even more thankful each day because 1 day I might not be so lucky to be free of the things that my mother and sister struggle with. So today I ask you to be thankful :) "Complaining is OK but try not to"
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